Me versus Me

When we make a fresh start in life and leave behind our well known life , we sometimes feel scared of all the change , all the unknown. 

I felt this way, when I suddenly found myself in new lands, I never knew. When I took the decision to make a change to my life, I took it quick so as not to retreat back to my comfortable known zone. And after a while, I found myself looking back and wishing I was back there again. It was a moment and then I checked myself and screamed at me, "Have you forgotten everything?Are you an alzeheimer patient? If so, go get treated."

I realized that my mind has been playing tricks on me, making me past-sick. It was making me sick to all that I was used to. To hide my fear from what I still don't know it beautified the past, to look more appealing and covered all the pain and disappointment I had to live through.

It is war time. Me versus Me. It's battle time and I have to win the battle against me, my mind and this machine called my brain. It is deluding me. 

At this time, we need all our strength to keep focused and keep things straight and clear. Just one weakness and we may lose it all. If at any moment, my urge to go back increased to a level greater that the urge to keep my newly gained achievements, I am back at point zero or even lower. This, according to me, means I will never get out of this ever again. I will be back to a life I once left but this time with no will or energy to leave again and I will forever remember that I failed to leave and thus, will never attempt it again.

So, what is needed is a firm grip on yourself. Remind yourself of the past, the real past and what made you leave at the first place. Remind yourself of how great it was when you took the first initial step out of the past.

Keep a smile and go on. Stop looking back.

This is what jwoman has to say today.