Sometimes, in my deepest desperate moments, I need to find someone to be upset with. I try to find the weakest link, someone to carry all the blame, someone to be the target of all my wrath. Someone who I have constant contact with but yet has nothing to do with my desperation. And that poor person, in my head, becomes my worst opponent, the one I have to deal with but don't want to do that at all.
And days pass by, and my desperation subsides, or atleast, is controlled and I am back to being me. Then, I suddenly realise my error. That person was just a normal human being who had done me no wrong. He was just the weakest link in my social network and I needed a target to blame for my pain.
Fortunately, it all happens in my head. The person only feels I am subdued and avoiding social contact and after some time I am back to normal. I hope those people can forgive me my weakness.
And days pass by, and my desperation subsides, or atleast, is controlled and I am back to being me. Then, I suddenly realise my error. That person was just a normal human being who had done me no wrong. He was just the weakest link in my social network and I needed a target to blame for my pain.
Fortunately, it all happens in my head. The person only feels I am subdued and avoiding social contact and after some time I am back to normal. I hope those people can forgive me my weakness.
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