She..............
"I need closure. My story with you makes my life unstable. I can't regain my balance as long as I have no closure. I am living in in-between. I am in-between life and death, suspended like a ghost. I'm a ghost with no future haunted by the past and don't see the present."
She breathed a deep breath. It was way beyond midnight and silence envelopped her, the only sound was her typing on her laptop that was halted with the last typed letter.
She reread the email multiple times, and the question of whether to send it or not played in her head.
Why do some people have to be so stubborn and so selfish, she thought. As human beings, we have a tendency to be locked inside ourselves. And from her experience, men tend to be locked in their own self-centered core more than women. By nature, most woman are more aware of other people.
How can she get out of this in-between state in which he cornered her. But, she know deep inside, that she can get herself out. However, the price this time will be so high.
She got up from her desk and walked to the balcony door. Slowly, she opened it. As she stepped outside, the cold night wind made her shiver. But the need to breath was more than the shivers. She tried to breath deeply to calm her nerves and get her heart to stop racing.
A lot of questions were left unanswered. And she was left alone to resolve the conflict and get out of the deadlock. He could save her, a lot, just by saying a word. The arrogant side of him will never let him do that.
She looked to the sky and prayed silently for strength.
After a long moment, she knew what she will do. Getting back inside, she closed the blinds and went back to her desk. The laptop laid there glaring at her; and she just shut it down. Slowly, she breathed deeply again and closed the lights.
"May you grant my heart peace, O'Lord".
He..............
It was 3 am in the morning and he was laying on the sofa, looking blindly at the ceiling. Sleep had been an impossible un-achievable goal for the last few month. How can he sleep, when he knows the pain he is causing the only one whom he truly loves. He knows what to do to make her feel better, to save her from all her pain.
But......But, he cannot do it.
Things are way more complicated and he cannot even justify his actions to her. Silence is his only answer to all her emails and calls. He has to watch her pain from far away in hurtful killing silence.
He knows that all she needs is a closure. She needs to know whether there is still hope or whether it has ended. She needs that to go on. But does he really want her to move on and walk away.
He thought about sending her an email telling her that it was over. This will hurt her but she will get over and proceed in her life. But he couldn't do that.
"I am too selfish to do that". He said out loud. He cannot cut the last thread that still tied them together.
He closed his eyes and prayed silently for patience and strength. He prayed that she be granted the patience to wait longer for him. He prayed she don't give up on them yet.
He sent her a love message through his heart, wishing it will reach her and give her peace.
This is what jWoman has to say today.
"I need closure. My story with you makes my life unstable. I can't regain my balance as long as I have no closure. I am living in in-between. I am in-between life and death, suspended like a ghost. I'm a ghost with no future haunted by the past and don't see the present."
She breathed a deep breath. It was way beyond midnight and silence envelopped her, the only sound was her typing on her laptop that was halted with the last typed letter.
She reread the email multiple times, and the question of whether to send it or not played in her head.
Why do some people have to be so stubborn and so selfish, she thought. As human beings, we have a tendency to be locked inside ourselves. And from her experience, men tend to be locked in their own self-centered core more than women. By nature, most woman are more aware of other people.
How can she get out of this in-between state in which he cornered her. But, she know deep inside, that she can get herself out. However, the price this time will be so high.
She got up from her desk and walked to the balcony door. Slowly, she opened it. As she stepped outside, the cold night wind made her shiver. But the need to breath was more than the shivers. She tried to breath deeply to calm her nerves and get her heart to stop racing.
A lot of questions were left unanswered. And she was left alone to resolve the conflict and get out of the deadlock. He could save her, a lot, just by saying a word. The arrogant side of him will never let him do that.
She looked to the sky and prayed silently for strength.
After a long moment, she knew what she will do. Getting back inside, she closed the blinds and went back to her desk. The laptop laid there glaring at her; and she just shut it down. Slowly, she breathed deeply again and closed the lights.
"May you grant my heart peace, O'Lord".
He..............
It was 3 am in the morning and he was laying on the sofa, looking blindly at the ceiling. Sleep had been an impossible un-achievable goal for the last few month. How can he sleep, when he knows the pain he is causing the only one whom he truly loves. He knows what to do to make her feel better, to save her from all her pain.
But......But, he cannot do it.
Things are way more complicated and he cannot even justify his actions to her. Silence is his only answer to all her emails and calls. He has to watch her pain from far away in hurtful killing silence.
He knows that all she needs is a closure. She needs to know whether there is still hope or whether it has ended. She needs that to go on. But does he really want her to move on and walk away.
He thought about sending her an email telling her that it was over. This will hurt her but she will get over and proceed in her life. But he couldn't do that.
"I am too selfish to do that". He said out loud. He cannot cut the last thread that still tied them together.
He closed his eyes and prayed silently for patience and strength. He prayed that she be granted the patience to wait longer for him. He prayed she don't give up on them yet.
He sent her a love message through his heart, wishing it will reach her and give her peace.
This is what jWoman has to say today.
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