I know I am growing old. And for sometime now, I have been aware that I am coming to the age, where it is normal to lose those people that you once thought will be there forever. As I grow old, they grow older and I have to be prepared.
Can anyone be prepared to lose a parent, an aunt or an uncle or a close older relative who have always been there in your life?
Whatever are the distances, they are there. You had it as a fact of life, that you have them. Days and month and maybe years pass without saying a word but you know they are there. And suddenly, the dark space inside becomes bigger as it engulfs another one of the family. And you are waiting for, who is next.
One day, you will wait no more, because you will be next.
Today I lost one. I lost my uncle Benjamin. And it scares me again. He is not there anymore. I am becoming more alone in this world. Even if, I didn't see him everyday, I knew he was there.
Can I prepare myself for such loss? No, I can't. Isolating myself from family, won't make it more bearable. Memories of them are engraved in my brain and can't be erased. It won't make the pain any less.
What scares me more is thinking that I am waiting for the next.
I wish I have shown him more love and care. I wish I said, I love you, uncle or I miss you.
No more memories to create with you, just memories to remember and a dark space inside of me.
Pray for us, my dear uncle.
That's what jWoman has to say today.
Can anyone be prepared to lose a parent, an aunt or an uncle or a close older relative who have always been there in your life?
Whatever are the distances, they are there. You had it as a fact of life, that you have them. Days and month and maybe years pass without saying a word but you know they are there. And suddenly, the dark space inside becomes bigger as it engulfs another one of the family. And you are waiting for, who is next.
One day, you will wait no more, because you will be next.
Today I lost one. I lost my uncle Benjamin. And it scares me again. He is not there anymore. I am becoming more alone in this world. Even if, I didn't see him everyday, I knew he was there.
Can I prepare myself for such loss? No, I can't. Isolating myself from family, won't make it more bearable. Memories of them are engraved in my brain and can't be erased. It won't make the pain any less.
What scares me more is thinking that I am waiting for the next.
I wish I have shown him more love and care. I wish I said, I love you, uncle or I miss you.
No more memories to create with you, just memories to remember and a dark space inside of me.
Pray for us, my dear uncle.
That's what jWoman has to say today.
