Woman

They say we are equal. They say we live in the age where women had been given all her rights and is treated as a human being, as an equal. But is that true. Is it true in the head of all men? Men are hard-wired to think lowly of women.

Judgemental as they are, men seem to know think they are superior, they know better. Behind the back of woman, when alone or with other male friends over drinks, they talk about woman. They enjoy calling us names.

She is too fat, not good enough
She is too thin, not good enough
She is too curvy, must be a slut
She laughs out too loud, she is a slut
She is too silent, how can her man endure her
She is too flirtous, a slut of course.
She is too independent, she is a slut.
She is too dependent, must stay away from her
...................

And a long list of names and descriptions, names I couldn't write here.

In my desperation

Sometimes, in my deepest desperate moments, I need to find someone to be upset with. I try to find the weakest link, someone to carry all the blame, someone to be the target of all my wrath. Someone who I have constant contact with but yet has nothing to do with my desperation. And that poor person, in my head, becomes my worst opponent, the one I have to deal with but don't want to do that at all.

And days pass by, and my desperation subsides, or atleast, is controlled and I am back to being me. Then, I suddenly realise my error. That person was just a normal human being who had done me no wrong. He was just the weakest link in my social network and I needed a target to blame for my pain.

Fortunately, it all happens in my head. The person only feels I am subdued and avoiding social contact and after some time I am back to normal. I hope those people can forgive me my weakness.