For a long time now, I have wondering what is the lesson the universe trying to give me. Why am I going through all this pain. I knew deep inside me that this was useless pain and that I can get out of it. I had a very deep feeling that I can be better, I am better but also that I am aware that there is something amiss in my life.
My everyday life was unhappy and frustrating, I was affected deeply by trivial matters and people. A whole year had passed in this frustration and maybe even more. Even, my personal life was so void all through that period, empty and lonesome.
And today, it dawned on me. I was driving my car to work and sudden BAAAAAM. It was so simple. It was something I told everyone and said multiple times. However, it seems I never really understood it or really applied it in my life.
I was seeking control over everything and everyone interacting with my life. I was turning into a control maniac. It was killing me that injustice is happening to a friend and I couldn't change that fact. My love life was not turning into the plan I had been brewing for years. My workplace was not functioning in the way I figured it should be functioning in. Everything was not working out as planned. And that was the issue.
I was used to being in control over many things. I had a certain autonomy in my previous job and a certain status that made me comfortable because it fed the control maniac inside me. That was not healthy. That made me believe I can change everything and everyone, although I kept saying otherwise. But really, I was.
Giving in to life, accepting what is given to you without a grudge, without desperation and frustration and being grateful.
Yes, I know it sounds cliche, but it is the truth. The truth that needs to be understood with consciousness and applied not just said and shared on social media.
But how to do that, I am still figuring out the steps and actions to achieve this. But I will start today just by saying this over and over to myself:
"I am grateful for everything and everyone. I am in accord with everything that happened and will happen. I am fine and at peace with myself and life."
This is what jWoman had to say today.
My everyday life was unhappy and frustrating, I was affected deeply by trivial matters and people. A whole year had passed in this frustration and maybe even more. Even, my personal life was so void all through that period, empty and lonesome.
And today, it dawned on me. I was driving my car to work and sudden BAAAAAM. It was so simple. It was something I told everyone and said multiple times. However, it seems I never really understood it or really applied it in my life.
I was seeking control over everything and everyone interacting with my life. I was turning into a control maniac. It was killing me that injustice is happening to a friend and I couldn't change that fact. My love life was not turning into the plan I had been brewing for years. My workplace was not functioning in the way I figured it should be functioning in. Everything was not working out as planned. And that was the issue.
I was used to being in control over many things. I had a certain autonomy in my previous job and a certain status that made me comfortable because it fed the control maniac inside me. That was not healthy. That made me believe I can change everything and everyone, although I kept saying otherwise. But really, I was.
Giving in to life, accepting what is given to you without a grudge, without desperation and frustration and being grateful.
Yes, I know it sounds cliche, but it is the truth. The truth that needs to be understood with consciousness and applied not just said and shared on social media.
But how to do that, I am still figuring out the steps and actions to achieve this. But I will start today just by saying this over and over to myself:
"I am grateful for everything and everyone. I am in accord with everything that happened and will happen. I am fine and at peace with myself and life."
This is what jWoman had to say today.
