My life chapters

Chapter 1 Childhood between home and alienation

Living inside my mind, was the main characteristic of my childhood. I had stories going on inside my head. I made up the drama missing in my life, the adventure and soon the romance, too. Sometimes, I made up stories to cover the drama happening in my young life. I dreamt and dreamt my days away. 

When I got introduced to books at around 11 or 12 years of age, I found my salvation, my solitude. My first real book was David Copperfield and I drowned in his sadness and pain to forget my disappointments.


Chapter 2  First love illusion leading to marriage
Love in eastern societies is a big issue, we think about all the time, talk about privately but never discuss publicly. When discussed publicly, it is always awkward. Searching for love is an etyernal journey in everyone's life. We all look for someone with whom we feel comfortable, we feel like ourselves.

Chapter 3  A revolution 

25 January 2011, the start of a revolution in my homeland. The start of a journey of exploration and enlightenment. No, I think that preparation for this journey started really earlier in 2010.

Chapter 4  Rebels go far
August 2013 marked the start of this chapter. It was the change that I most needed. The change that made me see things from a new perspective. I got the chance to look from outside, from far away. It was time to explore new grounds, to grow up by leaving home. I know I have left my parents home a long while ago but still I was living within my comfort zone. I was still living among my familiar environment. I had to start getting away, and being partially independent. This step would lead to a further movement and a more independent approach in the very near future. I could have never imagined, not in my wildest dreams that this decision will be the start of a whole new life.
  

Chapter 5 The new land

Welcome to the new land!!!

21 February 2016 , I set my feet on this new land and there I started a new chapter of life. I am hopeful because starting over and getting second chances is an opportunity not all people get. Here, I' m granted this chance to start over and be what I want to be. So I'm really grateful. 
It's a choice I made sometime ago. I choose aloneness. Aloness is getting sever with every step I take.

Farewells

I have said my farewell to the city of love. And at that instance I wrote the end of a chapter of my life, signalling the end of an era. Now, I m in transit waiting the start of what is to come.

The nice quiet city where I have discovered myself and a definition of love that suits me. I had the time and space there to contemplate and learn. In this city, there was no reason to rush and so much time to engage with yourself. I have loved the silence there. And I have rediscovered friendship and pure love. 

As I contemplate the last three years, it looks amazing and really fulfilling. I have gone through depths of life inside of me I never trodden into before. I feel amazed at the discoveries I made. 

The strength I discovered in me is amazing. I have learned to appreciate my aloneness. I m no more afraid of being on my own. Before, afraid of being alone was the main reason for my staying where I was. I made sacrifices that was unnecessary just because I was sure that I can't live and be on my own. I was attaching my existence and security to people, places and things. This is a big mistake which wasted 7 years of my life.

Now, I see life and myself so much better and I m ready to take things one more step further. I have hope and confidence. 

Life is full of surprises and experiences with good and bad included. And I have learnt not to regret. I have learnt to grow stronger from the bad and enjoy the good and in both keep smiling because everything will pass.

This is what jWoman had to say two weeks ago.